I think it just hit me

Dan + Ian at the flat: Ian: Right two things.. number one...at the end of that little tirade, you just called yourself 'The Yes Man'
Dan: Yeah.
Ian: Well, you can't it's entriely wanky. What were you gonna do? make yourself a little cape?

Im not seeing some of the people i really truely made really good friends with this year, well i say good friends, mutual friends.
I udno i guess i know i will kind of miss the people. I know i definately will miss certain individuals like Barker (why am i always callig him that?) and Ian and Alison etc, but tbh, it all came about too late. The whole REALISATION process. Meh, it's all about three words from here on out "Say Yes more" (Cheers Martin) So yes im gonna start to miss all these people but i am gona make most out of my gap year, im gonna knuckle down and work hard, and it's gonna click, because.. I'm going to make it click! So that's that. :)All because of my new bible :D(it's not a real bible, it's a different book)

Really?

I should post a mjor FAT blog about how the end of school was amazing, but it wasn't, It was really fun but not amazing, maybe hasn't sunk in yet, so here's a list and some pics.

- BBQ yum
- Kishan + Drink 10.30AM
- Martin acoustic set pwned
- After school water balloon pwnage
- Red lion 2pm
-Crown and treaty evening (walked with ian we held hands)
- FUCKIN ANNOYING WALK HOME (2 hours)
- Work
- Robert's 18th (more drink)
-Hayley stayed over (was really great! she makes me smile ^_^)
(Not in that way you dirty bastards)
- Today, chilled in bed till Hay had work, got up at 2, went pub to see grandpa and had a few drinks.
- chilled out family day...
- Work tommorow.

Another day

QOTD: Ian: (To alison over crying tommorow) But you got emotional over Harry Potter, 'Oh no a badly developed character has just died!' (love his sarcasm)

I have noticed, i have no social group at school, i just stand there. Just im exsistent, i think it's probably mainly down to.. Harry's never in school syndrome. Like i give a fuck, last day tommorow and i can say fuck off to tht shit school and all the people tht i do not lke within it, its a time to forget all the pathetic nobodies that ever were, fresh start, and im looking forward to it. The gap yr shall be great. Today was Slightly amusing english was funny its where ian's quote comes into play. amongst others.
then i just went home, one lesson realised im actually really in trouble with english 9/80 on my synoptics, me and kirsty realised we r gonna destroy tht paper lol, when we collect it we aare gonna go back and revise it like never before. Im not dumb. im just as intelligent as most people in the class, im just so fucking lazy, i cant be bothered. but i guess, these exams are important i can give the at least two weeks of my time.
Photography is where my heart is, and where it shall forever lie. As soon as i get the money i shall get a really good camera to highlight my skills or maybe just a few really nice lenses for my canon as it does pwn. =)
No hayley again today, had a bit of a convo on the phone but she seems to have too much going on to have ime for me as of late, so.. we'll see.

i drew a picture of her today (some weird 10 minute challenge thing) cos im missing her today, yeh i know only three/four days but still, its bullshit when she lives 5 min walk and i came out with whats shown in the above picture... hmm... was okay today. an OKAY day.

nevermind

Peace

Today was sickTASH

QOTD: James (ronaldo misses penalty, 'That was a rubbish penalty, but it was the best rubbish penalty i have EVER seen


QOTD2: Henry: This is tiger beer,tiger beer is .. 650 ml it was made in Nazarath Jesus was born in nazarath that makes us the three kings (there was only two of us)

Henry is finally 18 and oh my did we celebrate.Watched the game here with james and my dad seemed to criticise and analalyze every section of the game. Then went to pub and had a many a pint with Henry and Aaron and jamie, had some great convos. got a bit drunk walked back with hen to safeways (marks and sparks) as he wanted to go in there to buy some 'impertulant cigarettes' ended up buying camel LOL LIKE THE GOOD OLD DAYS OF GOODSHIP, On the way out found a picture on avodafone leaflette that looked like atalie sooo much so henry said it would be a great idea to go and post it to her (at01:30AM) also along with henry and my lucky numbers on the daily draw. walked back and i got some tiger beer from mine and we drank on the street for half hour before henry went and sat on some thrown out kids toy seat in the alley, after smashing a bottle on the (Mayfield seamen) MS crews graf we walked home and ended the eve. Henry had a great bday. Unfortunately the results didn't go chelseas wa AGAIN therefore, they have had 3 chances to win a cup this season and... theyve won... fuck all. Which admitedly makes me a hapy lad as Totteham are the superior team in london this season =) however as an outsider that game had everything for me to enjoy, people literally slipping at the last hurdle and my god was it funny. fights drama, it was good. Today was great! i woke up aching like a bastard because of the gym (noticed the difference already) so i didnt fancy getting ot ofmy bed for english therefore.... i didnt haha, Hayley ditched me :( again, she wanted to see me but she has art cwk to do which is fair enough but she needs to stop telling me shes gonna see me or to ring her etc when shes busy :S but hey! its how the cooky crumbles right?
Got in a deep convo about uni with Aaron at the pub (the man wo made me take the best decision of my life, to get back with hayley and forget what someone is about) so yeah that man has the best advice lthough tonight i fought his criticisms (and i like to do so with many people) he believes that i shouldnt have a GF going into uni and i should "ditch her now" but i like to prove people wrong cos hayley means the world to me, and the girls at uni wont have anything on her in the means of what shes bought me through she is truley amazing to me. so sorry Aaron but this time, im gonna go through the party time of my life as a taken one, because u can have fun even if u are with someone THATS how people who are in great marriages work, they are married but they can still avoid temptation. PLUS im madly in love with Hay have been for four years! yeah ive had my upsets and yeh ive learned from them so at the end of the day, i think we are too strong and to good to let go just for uni, it is a high arguin point for many couples but, i think, me and hay... we'll be just fine =) and I WONT regret it. Because ill be happily taken for her, for the rest of my life. =)
Today has been a real lazy day =) Chilling with James was great, he really relaxes me and we talk for hours about things that i need off my chest, sort of like a diary but a friend. Aaron was saying to me today that ur friends back here will be some of your closest friends and ull miss em for about a month but then u find new friends. I know i will, because of the way i am, but i cant help think that these guys especially and definately james have been my closest friends for 4-5 years that bond wont break.
Sorry for the long entry today but its been a good mind resolving day and i wake up tommorow with a bit of a hangover but a fresh mind, i think people will be like, harry's changed... haha bit too late SUCKERS. =)

goodnight.

More than.. (no not car insurance)

QOTD: James: well at least my cough is clearing up *cough* oh shit :(

Today was a mega chilled out day, had no lessons, so therefore i had no school, woke up at 10, had a shower, the usual morning drag. James came over, we chilled and watched some Angry Video Game Nerd, laughed, continued further to watch more white trash internet comedy before departing for the Job center (for James who has no quit college(Y) ) and the gym, we were at the gym for three hours i did some running and lots of weights, the usual, came back, WAS going to see Hayley but she got caught up with some shit at school, so i missed out on that, yes i was a bit bummed out :(
But James came over instead and we watched an episode of Lost season four, the story line is getting incredibly off the rails, but hey it's lost! And now i am to proceed to my bedroom to sleep.

goodnight mofo's

CMON UTD for tommorow :D

Your in my head...

QOTD: Dad: A new guy started at work today, he didn't stop sweating, he must've been so nervous. Bless him. To test the new guys out to see if they are any good we get them to laminate and most of them mess up. Paul goes to me "Mart this guy needs something to do, what shall we get him to do?" "what team do you support mate?" "arsenal" "Put him on laminating" the guy messed up (ofcourse) and he got sacked at the end of the day.

Woke up at 12.40 today, couldnt be bothered to go in, so i did the damned essay at home, think it's okay, ill give it in on wednesday as i have no lessons tommorow (MINT!!) Today i spent most of the day asleep, when i woke up did up my myspace a bit probably gonna keep editing it till it looks really good.. i hope it will (thanks ian for the help so far (Y) ), been messing around with images on photoshop and just having a laugh really, talking to a few people on msn.. that's about it.

Got a massive ego boost, after the last weeks downer about how im never invited out, ive been somewhat reassured by some people lately. Future is looking promising, life is begining a fresh just this one ends, and u know what im happy to say goodbye to that fucking school. it has bought some of the worst and best days of my life, mixed emotions go wiht it, but now im coming of age and life is gonna be sooooo good.

Money getting sorted out next month so i can organise it better :D its wicked, working some more extra hours t0 boost my income for july and hopefully ill be a bit more minted :D and then i can save some of it to propelll a good life of parties. :D


That is all for today im gonna go and enjoy more time on msn talking to sofie byeee
xx

This weekend.

QUOTE OF THE WEEKEND: Hen: Yeah but Sam works in Focus, we don't listen to Sam.

Sorry about the lack of posts recently but this weekend has been rather busy. Fri i was at work all day yay the joys. But then it was good because we (Being me Laurie Hayley) Went to Henry's where a fair few went, us lot then sam and sammette and Jamie and sean and luke wilson turned up later on. Henry had bought a fruitash and we were playing that for a couple of hours before migrating to his mums shop to continue the drinking. I've noticed that i have picked up on the speed of how quick i drink :S

Then yesterday work ... finished at 5 came home and got ready to go to bradleys party, was pretty cool, Me and Ina rick rolled it, because we are awesome =D and it was just there.. and we had to do it :D Hayley slept over which is always nice, had a joyful cab journey home with laurie sarah h leahy Lewis and Hayley talking about hair and shizzle, the cabby loved us xD. Hayley was a bit tiddly so she kind of fell asleep as soon as we got in, makes a change. James betts dancing to soldier boy, (knowing all the steps) one of the best moments of this weekend.

Today waking up at 8am by the sheer sunlight in my room (need new blinds or curtains?) and yeah... so i was awoken by hayley who was complaining about how light it is, and we didn't go back to sleep... its nice being closer to Hay now, it seems like our relationship is alot warmer and happier.. i guess we are at our finest at the moment, and hopefully it stays like this (touch wood) we eventually got up at 11.30 yes we are THAT lazy, and that was only because i told james to come over at 12 so he could sort some stuff out on my internetz before NATALIESSS
Where sangreea would be drank and pimms (with cucumber and lime and lemon and apples in) would be drank along with some coool lagers. Was pretty fun just one of those chilled out afternoon/evenings. Was sposed to end at 6 but it kind of went righ ton through till.. 8.30... lol was great. Last week at school this week, i am very much looking forward to it, and BRING ON WEARING ALL BLACK to the 'hawaii' leavers lunch, i think most people are wearing black/school uniform. xD gonna be funny.

English Essay tommorow... it's some sort of joke :( MUST BE.

Ive come to...

QOTD: Ian:"save space, money and make us feel like bees, but bees with air conditioning and sky TV (though feeling like a pollinating insect isn't culturally benefictial), alternativly we could live in underground tunnels and caverns, like ants, but ants with air conditioning and cable (as you can't get a sky signal underground)" (GENERAL STUDIES ANSWER)

the realisation that my age restricts me from everything i wanna do, i wanna hang out with new (ish) people. I wanna be invited out by chris john ian and that lot and be able to come out, i feel like my age is stopping me from having a social status. I've been thinking about it recently, i feel cut out from tht group as if i never have been a part of it, well.. really i havent, they are such nice people too.
A certain individual has annoyed me over the last two days and i am in a frame of mind of not talking to them... they sort of know who they are but yeh they have pissed me off pretty bad, just cos i havent had such a childish way of dealing with a situation like this since yr 10/11? i thought everyone had grown up now! i dont need stupid remarks going around, i dont care what mood they are in, no need for it, just dont stick your nose in mate okay!
gosh im in a bad mood, working overtime atm cos i need the money cos im shit at managing it, getting passport sorted soon, hopefull ill be able to live a bit of a better life than always down tht frigging pub, as nice as it is, i havent truly missed being down there. When i have money again, i won't follow this religious cycle of going there!
I think another reason im fuckked off is cos all the parties are happening this side of payment day.. i have no money cos.. well.. cos i had to pa out alot from previous month, i dont wanna be doing tht again this month, gym membership cost a bomb and now i might have to pause it while i wait to switch my accounts. GAH.
well at least there was some silver lining, general studies exam was great,just for sheer humour values! You can't really beat answering a shitty pointless exam questions so much more amusingly, everyone was saring the funny ways in which they had answered the question, i bare a thought for the por people marking those papers, infact, no fuck them! it'd make me fucking laugh reading some of the answers coming out of those papers.
didn't get to see hayley, worked till 10.00 pm to my regret when i was told i would finish at 9 :| hopefully that doesn't happen again tommorow... sigh... oh well, im off to bed now with a sore head and a temperament to match.
end of school next week, thank fuck for tht, REVISION TIME WOO. :\

On the contrary the last week with my close close mates (the group) which seems to me to be Henry and James, LOL as i don't see Jamie anymore really either, (maybe cos i don't go pub) but yeh we kind of put up the pool on monday and chilled in the hot weather, whih has now left us till next week (hopefully) and if it doesn't come back next week then.. i will be sad.. yes it is possible, sadder than the state i am at now... two photos (above) depict this week past (so far)

No sleeping at night...

QOTD: James: Chocolate Rain!

PRE WARNING: NO BLOG ENTRIES TILL FRIDAY AS I HAVE TO HAND IN MY LAPTOP FOR PHOTOGRAPHY EXAM TILL THEN SORRY =(

So what a weekend, i signed up to virgin media gym yday, realised i need to keep fit you see, so it's been a weekend of sorting tht out when i should've been doing photog, money well spent, better than spending it on some game or something at least ill be keeping fit now =) hopefully begin to be a bit more comfy bout my body too. Noticed another reason why i stopped going swimming too now, i dont like taking my top off around people i don't know! :S Meh! Maybe this will boost a little confidence in me again. well £20 a month, gonna see if any other friends wanna join. James got me to join yday so it's all good.

After signing some contracts passing bank details over at the gym, walked back got changed and went to hayley's for BBQ with james, got a bit tidly on pina coladas (however its spelt?) wine and fosters, kind of missed the main event but still spent 5 hour sitting in the garden chilling chatting and drinking on the booze cruise of food... yeh not the greatest start to the regime, but im putting weight on to turn to muscle so its all cool.... really loved the day was great. Even just seeing Hay made me a bit on the happy side.

Then today, woke up at 10 had my protein (chocolate and bannana) shake for breakfast, james knocked at 11.20 ish then we got ready n walked to uxb to the gym, started at 12, decided, at 2 we would have a break, went in the sauna LOL aka human oven, lasted 10mins in there and had to leave efore we melted, went on a break had a subway yumm... brned tht off within the hour of being back from our break, tried an energy bar yumm zesty orange straight to your mouth but yes, its really good there and all the classes u can attend in the studios are free! :D its great! so yeh im looking forward to the next 12months of being there and completing school and yeh its great. so hopefully soon ill be able to go to the swimming pool and not be worried about OTHER people seeing me topless, friends its fine cosi dont give a crap... gah i bet a few people r like wtf is wrong with u? but... seriously .. i have issues xD

After gym, knocked for hayley, she came over n we sorted photography stuff and ate roast dinner wooo! she hasnt yet come to grips with how lucky she is for me to be comfy around her (still after all these years) and tht she should be comfyaround me, just guess some girls are like tht, i wonder what it'd be like if roles were reversed.. hmmm *strokes beard*

might go gym tommorow if i dont ache too much if not.. hey i can do some english cwk :O OMG i still havent done it xD

anyways night night =) x

To be dead

Those who know... know.


=S

xx

Nostalgic

QOTD: Bam: Just seeing if i can see Uranus in Mianus...


Media was okay, me and Hayley were okay today, English timed essay was okay, but i KNOW im not going into english p1 tommorow for the sheer fact i KNOW i aint got tht cwk done, and i KNOW i can do it over the weekend =)

Uploaded some old pics form new york.. currently searching for more nostaligia on old cds tht ive burned pics too... anyways


all in all a nostalgic day, looking at all these little films from ny and pictures, fantastic!

Im off to bed toodles

xx